If I were to send notes or post a secret, its gonna be this..

I HATE my soon-to-be-sister-in-law. She’s annoying, a bitch, burdens EVERYONE, and talks without thinking. I HATE her. A LOT. Thinks she’s oh so good and say other people selfish but she doesn’t know that she is one BIG selfish girl. pfttt

Yeah. That is my secret.

Out of nowhere, IT says something about me. Oh yes I know IT is saying something about me. Relate to me. IT is being a big fat UGLY Bitch. Oh yes. IT’s ugly alright. IT said bad things about people when IT itself don’t realize, IT is talking to itself. get it? Huh IT is one big fat lazy person. Feel like wanna slap IT HARD IN THE FACE!

BITCH. YOU HAVE CROSSED THE LINE. YOU ARE BEING ONE BITCH OF ALL BITCHES. BITCH.

UNEDUCATED PEOPLE ARE ALWAYS LIKE THAT.

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Life is complicated now.
I hate my life right now.
Everything so messed up.
I think I’m under pressure now.
Happy for awhile, then later, comes back the sadness.
This is sad.
Very sad.

Sighhhhh I want to move the time forward.
I want to get settle down now.
I don’t like people telling me what to do.
I know what to do.
Okay people can tell me what to do but not ALL THE TIME.
I’m tired. I am seriously tired.
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I hate what my life has become.

BORING. AND DULL. AND CONTROL.

I FUCKING HATE IT.

I have my fucking life.

I have my fucking rights.

I have my fucking freedom!

Where the fuck are all that?

GONE.

Fuck That.

Seriously.

SHUT UP YOUR BIGG MOUTHHH

IT DOESN’T EVEN BRING ANY GOOD TO YOU!

FUCK THAT!

I HATE ITTTTTTTTTTTTTT

SERIOUSLY I HATE ITTTTTTTTTTTT

FUCK YOUR STUPID BIG MOUTH!

BITCH!

I want to ask you a question.. Is it weird to be friends with your ex? Well, if you ask me that, yeah. It is weird. Especially when you used to have sex with her/him. Nahh I’m just saying. It is weird. It is just.. weird. Weird, isn’t it? But I want to be friends with ex-s. But seems I could not. Not to mentioned what I did to them. Broke their hearts. :S Which I’m not proud of. So, is it weird to be friends with your ex? Hmm..

Like seriously serious, I’m so fuck shit annoyed.

First, I was annoyed, that was told by someone, that ARRGHHH!!! Better not say it. I’ll be the bad girl, once you read it. And yes, I am freakingly selfish. So wattafuck?

Second, I was TERRIBLY annoyed by someone, who always borrow people’s money. I don’t get it. Why don’t this someone ask from his/her other half?!?!?! like seriously! WHY? SOMEBODY JUST PLEASEEEE TELL ME WHY?!!!! And for what?? FOR SOME VERY VERY VERY UNNECESSARY STUFF TO BUY! FUCK THAT!

Make me go here and there doing his/her favor. FUCK THAT!

FUCK IT!

IF THIS CONTINUES TILL EVER, I WILL CERTAINLY REACH MY LIMIT OF PATIENCE, AND WILL NO LONGER TAKE IT. I’M FED UP!

ARRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

FUCKED UP!

Well, at the moment, life is boring. Because it has been weeks since I really really spent QUALITY time with my fiance. Seriously. Yes, we went out and all, but.. I need more than just that. I want his attention more. I want his love more and more and more. I want he cares NOBODY but only me! That is what I want. Yes. I’m selfish! So what? I admit that I am really really selfish person. I don’t give a shit. I hate it when he has to do something else for other people doing things that THAT other people can do it by themselves!!!! SERIOUS SHIT. I hate it! LAZY ASS. seriously. I don’t know whether I’m the one being all crank up, but I just don’t like people ask me to do something that the people can do it themselves, and the people are just finding stupid excuses why the people cannot do it etc. I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! Till when this gonna last? TILL I DIE IS IT?!!?! Oh my god. Pathetic asshole! He is sooooo not responsible towards the people but yet, still keep doing favor for the people. He say helping, I say the people is taking advantage of it. Like serious shit! 

YOU COULD SAY THAT I’M VERY MAD. YES INDEED I AM! YOU MIGHT NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT I JUST SAID, BUT BEAR WITH ME. I’M SO TENSED UP. IT’S LIKE HE’S THE PEOPLE’S SLAVE THAT NEEDS TO DO WHAT THE PEOPLE WANTS HIM TO DO WHATEVER THE PEOPLE LIKES! FUCK THAT! 

Life is PATHETIC. INDEED HELL IT IS PATHETIC AND BORING AND ANNOYING AND ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pernah tak rasa rimas dengan orang sekeliling? *Other than my fiance, of course*

Pernah tak?

Pernah tak rase macam nak jerit, tapi tak boleh nak jerit sebab takut orang tu kecil hati or kata kita kurang ajar?

Pernah tak?

Aku selalu pernah.

Rasa boleh jadi psycho lama-lama.

Seriously.

Rasa nak lempang pun ada jugak. 

Rasa nak marah saja.

Aku stress lama-lama gini.

Rasa nak cepat-cepat pindah rumah baru aku.

Oh yea, rumah baru aku da 90% hakmilik aku. Tinggal payment je. Rasa tak sabar nak get on with new life. Seriously. Everything will be my way. Don’t want to follow my way, get out. 

Seriously. 

Pernah tak rasa rimas dengan orang sekeliling? 

Pernah tak?

Aku pernah. 

SETIAP HARI.

-.-“

I was so furious, mad and angry last night.

Till I cried. I tend to cry whenever I was feeling so so so mad and angry. 

Everything that I felt, about everything, I told Jay. I told Jay before this, about the same thing. But this time, I told everything. From what I feel, from what I see, from what I think!

I was so pissed off. I just couldn’t take it anymore.

It’s like a burden to me now. Burden to always take care of others feelings when they DON’T GIVE A DAMN SHIT bout others feelings. to my feelings.

Stupid ARSE. They think that they can do whatever that they want to do, huh?? BULLSHIT. FUCK SHIT. 

I’M DONE TAKING CARE OTHERS FEELINGS. WHOEVER MESSED UP WITH ME, IM GONNA STAND UP FOR MYSELF AND BE A HARD COLD MEAN BITCH!