It's the real me. Seriously.: Archive

If I were..

If I were to send notes or post a secret, its gonna be this.. I HATE my soon-to-be-sister-in-law. She’s annoying, a bitch, burdens EVERYONE, and talks without thinking. I HATE her. A LOT. Thinks she’s oh so good and say other people selfish but she doesn’t know that she is one BIG selfish girl. pfttt Yeah. That is my secret.

Oct 5th

You have crossed the line, Bitch.

Out of nowhere, IT says something about me. Oh yes I know IT is saying something about me. Relate to me. IT is being a big fat UGLY Bitch. Oh yes. IT’s ugly alright. IT said bad things about people when IT itself don’t realize, IT is talking to itself. get it? Huh IT is one big fat lazy person. Feel like wanna slap IT HARD IN THE FACE! BITCH. YOU HAVE CROSSED THE LINE. YOU ARE BEING...

Sep 5th

Sighhhh

Life is complicated now. I hate my life right now. Everything so messed up. I think I’m under pressure now. Happy for awhile, then later, comes back the sadness. This is sad. Very sad. Sighhhhh I want to move the time forward. I want to get settle down now. I don’t like people telling me what to do. I know what to do. Okay people can tell me what to do but not ALL THE TIME....

Aug 11th

AKU BENCI SEMUA ORANG.

I hate what my life has become. BORING. AND DULL. AND CONTROL. I FUCKING HATE IT. I have my fucking life. I have my fucking rights. I have my fucking freedom! Where the fuck are all that? GONE. Fuck That.

Jul 15th

YOU ARE SO FUCKING ANNOYING.

Seriously. SHUT UP YOUR BIGG MOUTHHH IT DOESN’T EVEN BRING ANY GOOD TO YOU! FUCK THAT! I HATE ITTTTTTTTTTTTTT SERIOUSLY I HATE ITTTTTTTTTTTT FUCK YOUR STUPID BIG MOUTH! BITCH!

Jul 8th

Is it weird?

I want to ask you a question.. Is it weird to be friends with your ex? Well, if you ask me that, yeah. It is weird. Especially when you used to have sex with her/him. Nahh I’m just saying. It is weird. It is just.. weird. Weird, isn’t it? But I want to be friends with ex-s. But seems I could not. Not to mentioned what I did to them. Broke their hearts. :S Which I’m not proud...

May 17th

2 MOST ANNOYING THINGS HAPPENED TODAY!

Like seriously serious, I’m so fuck shit annoyed. First, I was annoyed, that was told by someone, that ARRGHHH!!! Better not say it. I’ll be the bad girl, once you read it. And yes, I am freakingly selfish. So wattafuck? Second, I was TERRIBLY annoyed by someone, who always borrow people’s money. I don’t get it. Why don’t this someone ask from his/her other...

May 15th

life is ... (Fill in the blank)

Well, at the moment, life is boring. Because it has been weeks since I really really spent QUALITY time with my fiance. Seriously. Yes, we went out and all, but.. I need more than just that. I want his attention more. I want his love more and more and more. I want he cares NOBODY but only me! That is what I want. Yes. I’m selfish! So what? I admit that I am really really selfish person. I...

May 9th

Pernah tak?

Pernah tak rasa rimas dengan orang sekeliling? *Other than my fiance, of course* Pernah tak? Pernah tak rase macam nak jerit, tapi tak boleh nak jerit sebab takut orang tu kecil hati or kata kita kurang ajar? Pernah tak? Aku selalu pernah. Rasa boleh jadi psycho lama-lama. Seriously. Rasa nak lempang pun ada jugak. Rasa nak marah saja. Aku stress lama-lama gini. Rasa nak cepat-cepat...

Apr 13th

Annoying like hell!

I was so furious, mad and angry last night. Till I cried. I tend to cry whenever I was feeling so so so mad and angry. Everything that I felt, about everything, I told Jay. I told Jay before this, about the same thing. But this time, I told everything. From what I feel, from what I see, from what I think! I was so pissed off. I just couldn’t take it anymore. It’s like a burden to...

Mar 24th

Sometimes..

Sometimes I wish that I have friends that can hang out at night, who are open-minded, who are wild and crazy to be with. I just wish to have those kind of friends. Girlfriends. Sometimes, I just want to hangout with them, and just chill, get some shisha, get some ABC at the middle of the night. Yes. sometimes I do wish. and girlfriends that I can talk about my problems, that I can rely on....

Mar 19th

I FREAKING HATE IT!

Do you like when people criticize you? THE ANSWER IS NO! I HATE IT! criticize maybe saying that you do no good in things that you know it yourself that you can do it. I don’t like people judge myself, my future like how it is gonna be, *like maybe I can’t do things by myself, and its like I will never learn.* FUCK THAT! Arrghhhhhhh it is so hard to explain the situation....

Mar 19th

Sooooo..

So, actually, the ‘thing’ that Im excited about, is really happening. I just don’t want to tell EVERYONE. My mistake at first for letting the cat jumped out from the bag :S Anyways, tomorrow I’ll be signing the documents with the lawyer and all. :D Excited. I even have imagine my dream built-in wardrobe. Awesome, ya’ll! :D I just can’t wait till December...

Mar 17th

Reasons WHY.

Reasons why I want to be on my own feet. 1) I don’t like when people tell me what to do, what not to do, what is the best one, what should be done, what should I buy stuffs, which I should decide, which option thinks the best one, tells me like I know nothing. Damn shit I HATE that. 2) I can rule my own ‘world’. I can know myself better. I can learn more about myself without...

Mar 10th

A person called IT.

I come across this one person. Lets call he/she “IT”. IT has a VERY BAD ATTITUDE. Oh my god! I am so furious. IT is one pathetic selfish person. IT talks bad about others and it makes me SO FURIOUS. IT cannot accept what people have to say to IT. IT is a bitch. IT only think what IT think IT knows. IT is one stupid person. IT talks about people’s flaws but IT itself have...

Mar 6th

Sometimes I wish I can make the time go fast.

Okay. Here is the thing. I wanted to further my studies in UK. Either UK or Australia. Reasons why in UK: 1) Jay has relative studying/staying there. So, it would be convenient for us to stay at their place for awhile before we find our own place. …. Oh. That is the only reason -.-“ If it’s in Australia, I was thinking of studying in RMIT. but not sure yet. Anyways, if I...

Feb 26th

Fuck shit.

I wanna get thin! I wanna get thin! I wanna get thin! FUCK. I wanna get thin! I know that I’m not THAT fat but I am somehow is fat. :S I really need to get thin. So that I could regain my confidence. Poise. Makes me voluptuous. I wanna look HOT again! I wanna wear those small tops/dresses that I used to wear! I wanna look thin like I used to be! I don’t want this bulging tummy....

Feb 17th

DEVASTATED.

Devastated. Not the correct word to describe. Stress, maybe? FYI, lately, I’ve been searching, googling in the Internet on properties. Yes. On properties for sales. Houses for sale. I wanted my own home. I wanted to get married and have my own house. You guys might say that “chill. Enjoy being 20. Why rush?” OR “Kerja dulu. Baru pikir.” Well, you might or might not...

Feb 12th

The things are:

Okay. The things are: 1) I am scared of my results. It freaks me out. Seriously. I don’t even know that I’m gonna pass my exams. How bad or good my result is gonna be? That just bothers me. Am I going to repeat the papers? I don’t want that to happen :( I don’t really give the best during the exams. Urgghhh 2) I would love to start classes as soon as possible! I’m...

Dec 28th

Drunkers.

I admit that I don’t like people the same religion as mine drinks alcohol. No, I don’t hate them. I feel pity for them. Do they know that drinking alcohol is forbidden by God? *Actually they know, but they tend to do it more often* The weird thing is.. they don’t like to eat pork because they say that it’s disgusting. But they drink alcohol which is far more way disgusting....

Dec 28th

New User: Saby

Not to be awkward, I’m Saby. I’m JUST 19 :) And I’m happily engaged. Getting Married not-so-soon ;P Talking about getting married so soon, sometimes people .. are so.. how to say this.. kuno. They think that, ‘ohhh you’re getting married, you’re not studying anymore?’ OR ‘ohhh miangnye nak kahwin awal.’ OR ‘have to finish up my study...

Dec 24th