It's the real me. Seriously., Fuck shit.

Fuck shit.

I wanna get thin!

FUCK.

I wanna get thin!

I know that I’m not THAT fat but I am somehow is fat.

I really need to get thin. So that I could regain my confidence. Poise. Makes me voluptuous. I wanna look HOT again! I wanna wear those small tops/dresses that I used to wear! I wanna look thin like I used to be! I don’t want this bulging tummy. I don’t want this hanging fats under my arms. NO!

Reasons:

Everytime if I saw Jay’s ex-s pictures or whatever, they all are thinner than me. *Not to say they are thin, but they are thinner than me* Makes me feel.. ugly. Naahhh not ugly. Just makes me determined to have a great body.

Jay always said that he likes the way I am now. Not too skinny, not too boney, not too fatty. Just nice to hug. :S I’m flattered but I still want my appearance to look good. Who says that once you have a boyfriend/fiance/husband, there is no need to be pretty?

That is why, for the past few.. week, I’ve been searching high and low for any shapewear. You know, like the corsets and girdles. Yes. That is the first step. Second step, once you wear it, it will cramp up you body and makes you eat less. Like there is no room for more food. Then, the third step, is when the shapewear makes your body thinner.

I know. Beauty is pain. Indeed it is.

HAVE to get beautiful body before December! Earlier the better!